Not a success story this time

 I am ashamed of myself for failing Linear Algebra last semester 

I am ashamed of myself for decreasing my grade in calculus and analytics,  applied physics,  basic maths II, and the list goes on

Now, if someone reads this and tells me that "you are doing great already, you can do better next time"

Yes, I understand there's always next time.... but what about the time I have wasted? In my university, there's plenty of space for me to study 

There are many cooperative teachers. I have breaks in my schedule, I could have done 1000 times better

I don't know why I get distracted, why I was not motivated enough to do better 

Whyyyy????? I was never an average or last grader; I was always the top student 

What happened to me? This is not me, cause if it were me, why haven't I tried harder 

Why did I let my salary go to waste? My fee instalments are already very high.... 

Am I not intelligent enough now? Can I do it, can I get back to my position, can I reach the  goal og 3.5+ GPA once again

These questions and self-doubt in the midst of studying a lot harder, you all.

May Allah help every one of us in achieving our goals, Ameen

Best of luck Daniaa, you can do this, you must have to do this, you ain't have a second choice to fall.

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